Over the last few days I have been up and down with the way I feel. I have been I guess kinda depressed. I have felt sad and alone. Unloved and uncared for. This is not cause of things done wrong or cause I have been mistreated. It is cause of life. We have to work hard at this way of life just like any relationship. However, in the past when I get to felling like this it last for days even weeks. I could start fights with my bumblebee and they would last for days a well. We would not talk of even acted like we wanted to be around each other. This caused a lot of damage to our marriage. Now that we have dd let me tell you how it changed the way we deal with this. WE TALK, TALK, TALK. We talk in a clam way tell each other how we feel and find a way to fix it. Once you have received the love you get form dd you want no other. As it turns out after we TALKED, I was missing just a few little things that we had been doing and of course his loving hands. Bumblebee spanked me and let me know he still cares and loves me. The spanking was a great way for an release of all those bed feelings and way to put the past few days behind us and move on. Once it is behind us it can not be held over our heads looming like a black cloud of ugly. We held each other for hours and laughed and smiled cause he showed me he still had me not matter what life throws at us. I showed me that he can carries me when needed and that all his love is mine no matter. He is great with me. He know what I want and need. I just want to show ppl that just cause you feel off that it dose not mean this life dose not work. It is not a miracle answer. It however it the answer to a lot of unneeded issues in a relationship. It also make each other reasonable for our action and how they affect the other person and others around them. It helps build trust and love responsibility and faith. It also lets us be who we are and be loved and gives us the support we need to do any thing in the world. I have smoked for about ten years now and as of today I have decided I am going to wing myself off of them. I feel I can do this now because I have so much more self control and the confidence to do it. I will keep you all posted on that over the next few days.